Author: Joseph

  • Christian Buddhist Chronicles: Episode 1

    Before we get started, some definitions: Repent: that is to turn 180 degrees from your current action About 6 years ago I left the church. Not exactly like that. I didn’t walk away. I left my hometown community for a grand adventure I thought would only last a year. Instead it changed me. I was…

  • Observations about myself

    South Fork, Colorado. This morning I had a bit of time in meditation and I felt an overwhelming sense of gratitude for the things that bring me comfort. I’m a person who tends to avoid pain and discomfort. I enjoy being warm, comfortable, well fed etc. Over the last week it’s been a struggle to…

  • Having vs Being

    I’ve been meditating for a while now. At least 100 days. I’ve found it to be a wonderful practice and something I genuinely look forward to. But I’ve also changed because of it. I feel more connected with all things. My intentional practice of mindfulness has made me much slower to anger and faster to…

  • God.

    I realized tonight that I don’t believe that God has a gender. It’s not really a new thought to me, but it is a new conviction. I was texting a friend tonight, talking about God, and I said I realized that God was everywhere, and when I started describing the personhood of God, I didn’t…

  • I had a friggin panic attack.

    Hello, I’m Joseph – It’s been 1 day since my last panic attack. Before that, it’s been 2,034 days — or 5 Years, 6 Months, 3 Weeks and 5 Days. I feel like that should count for something. For me, it’s the power of medicine, and the cost of forgetting it. It’s been a busy…

  • Be Kind to Yourself – Christ has put His Heredity In You

    Andrew Peterson, Be Kind to Yourself My Utmost for His Highest – The Nature of Regeneration Further inspiration: Who I Am (Song by Brian Morykon) In light of the gospel and redemption we have found in Christ, let us remember who we are. We are beloved. Children of God. Sonship in Christ (Galations 4) We…

  • Living life on purpose

    I struggle with anxiety When I say that, I mean, I really struggle with anxiety. Specifically, I worry about my health and am at times convinced I have cancer / heart disease / kidney disease etc. I’m a closet hypochondriac. This causes me to fear a lot. My greatest fixation of that fear is my…

  • Learning to Love God

    This past Sunday was a very moving message for many people in the church congregation. The message was titled “Learning to Love God” and was taught by a man named Jim Nelson. Jim is a respected man and an elder in our church. He and his family have been members for over a decade. Jim…

  • Because of His grace, and your small measure of faith, God is adamant and passionate about revealing himself to you.

    There is a story in the new testament about a woman who approaches Jesus to be healed. She has a problem, and has been menstrauting for 12 years. At first glance this story doesn’t stand out as anything extraordinary, but when you simply illuminate 2 things, it becomes a totally different story. Women on their…

  • Perspective Adjustment, or How We Lost Our Van

    Having three kids is hard. Actually, having two kids under 5, and an infant is hard. My daughters are now pretty easy to handle. When they’re obedient, they’re tons of fun. After the arrival of our new son though, it has been a struggle to keep the right perspective. Then something kinda crazy happened. Three…